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ORIGINAL RESEARCH • PEER-REVIEWED PUBLICATION
Clear Inner Sight Disorder (CISD):
A Preliminary Clinical and Phenomenological Characterization
of an Ultra-Rare Condition of Extended Awareness
Samantha Torres, M.D.
Department of Neuropsychiatry and Consciousness Studies
[Institution name withheld by directive]
Keywords: Clear Inner Sight Disorder, CISD, consciousness, infinite awareness, memory, anticipatory cognition, phenomenology, derealization, grandiose delusions, religious delusions, psychosis.
Author's Warning
UNREVIEWED MATERIAL - This section has not been cleared through the same channels as the proceeding material.
If you are reading this, you are now closer to CISD than the general population. The proximity is not mystical. It is procedural and cognitive. You have allowed the concept to occupy space in your attentional field, you have rehearsed its structure, and you have granted some degree of plausibility to a mode of awareness that does not comfortably fit inside existing diagnostic categories.
I am clinically trained. I am conversant with the criteria for psychotic disorders, for delusional systems, for religious experiences that lose contact with shared reality. I am also aware that, at intervals, my own thinking has crossed lines I would once have labeled "grandiose," "religious," or "psychotic."
!! WARNING FOR CLINICIANS !!
Proceed as if you are handling a substance with an unknown toxicity profile. Contain it. Limit unnecessary exposure. Do not invite it into casual conversation. Individuals with CISD are not enlightened. They are overloaded, destabilized, and at measurable risk of psychosis, suicidality, and exploitation. Treat this as a disorder, not a revelation.
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!! WARNING FOR GENERAL READERS !!
Keep a strict boundary between curiosity and identification. You do not need to decide whether you "have" CISD. Some forms of deliberate introspective experimentation are, in this domain, functionally equivalent to self-harm.
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Compliance and Disclosure Statement
This study was conducted under the oversight and sponsorship of a governmental body hereafter referred to as "the Agency." Certain procedural details, institutional identifiers, and individual characteristics have been withheld or generalized in accordance with operational and security directives. All data have been anonymized, and potentially sensitive content has been constrained to aggregate descriptions.
The scope of what may be written is explicitly constrained. Any apparent omissions, circumlocutions, or generalized terminology are intentional and required. Any conspicuous gaps or carefully neutral phrasings should be understood as reflecting these enforced limits rather than a lack of clinical or scientific clarity.
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>> Abstract
Background: Clear Inner Sight Disorder (CISD) is a provisionally defined ultra-rare neuropsychiatric condition characterized by persistent, involuntary, and subjectively exhaustive awareness of the downstream consequences of choices and events. Affected individuals report a breakdown of functional boundaries between conscious and non-conscious cognitive processes, as well as between waking experience and dream-like mentation. They describe a pervasive erosion of any stable, external "objective" reality and an associated burden of effectively limitless recall.
Objective: To provide an initial, systematically collected description of CISD, focusing on phenomenology, cognitive profile, functional impact, and putative neurobiological correlates, while adhering to mandated constraints on technical and operational disclosure.
Methods: A cross-sectional, mixed-methods study was conducted on a convenience sample of 12 adults (7 identified as male, 5 as female; mean age 28.6 ± 5.2 years) meeting provisional criteria for CISD. Assessments included structured clinical interviews; standardized measures of mood, anxiety, dissociation, and psychosis-spectrum phenomena; customized phenomenological interviews; neurocognitive testing with emphasis on memory and decision-making; and multimodal neuroimaging. Certain imaging modalities and analytic techniques are not described in detail per directive. Quantitative data were analyzed using descriptive statistics and exploratory correlations; qualitative data were coded thematically.
Results: All participants reported a persistent, involuntary experience of what they described as "total" or "near-total" anticipatory awareness of the consequences of possible actions and environmental events. This awareness was temporally extensive, multi-branching, and accompanied by difficulty distinguishing between actualized and non-actualized outcome trajectories. Participants demonstrated near-perfect performance on standard episodic and semantic memory tasks, with evidence of qualitative abnormalities (e.g., simultaneous recall of multiple mutually exclusive event chains). Functional outcomes were uniformly poor, with high rates of occupational impairment, social withdrawal, and clinically significant distress. Neuroimaging revealed reproducible but non-specific alterations in distributed networks associated with self-referential processing, prospective simulation, and memory integration. No evidence of classical psychotic disorder or primary neurodegenerative disease was identified.
Conclusions: CISD appears to represent a distinct and profoundly disabling alteration of awareness involving vastly expanded anticipatory and mnemonic access, with resultant destabilization of reality testing, identity continuity, and decision-making. The condition challenges conventional models of consciousness, memory, and agency. Further investigation is warranted but will require continued careful management of ethical, clinical, and security considerations.
>> 1. Introduction
Clear Inner Sight Disorder (CISD) is a provisional diagnostic construct proposed to capture a highly unusual pattern of subjective experience and cognitive functioning. The core feature is what affected individuals describe as "infinite" or "near-infinite" awareness: an intrusive, non-volitional capacity to apprehend downstream consequences of choices and events across extensive temporal and causal horizons.
Clinically, patients report a profound collapse of distinctions between:
- Conscious and non-conscious processes, and
- Waking experience and dream-like mentation.
In practice, experiential boundaries between "what is currently happening," "what might happen," "what has happened," and "what could have happened instead" are eroded or abolished.
A central theoretical question is how effectively limitless memory and anticipatory cognition affect psychological wellbeing, identity, and functional capacity. Unlike known enhanced-memory syndromes (e.g., highly superior autobiographical memory), CISD involves not only dense recall of actual events but also pervasive, involuntary simulation and quasi-recall of potential futures and alternative pasts, all experienced with a degree of vividness and certainty that approaches or equals ordinary perception.
Existing diagnostic frameworks are poorly equipped to accommodate such presentations. CISD has partial phenomenological overlap with psychotic disorders (e.g., disturbances of reality testing), dissociative disorders (e.g., derealization, depersonalization), obsessive-compulsive phenomena (e.g., overwhelming preoccupation with possibilities), and certain sleep-wake disorders (e.g., intrusion of dream-like content into wakefulness). However, preliminary clinical impressions suggest that CISD cannot be fully reduced to any of these.
The present study is an initial attempt to delineate the clinical and phenomenological contours of CISD in a small cohort of individuals identified through specialized referral pathways. Due to the potential implications of the condition and the nature of the data involved, this work has been conducted under the supervision of a governmental entity (the Agency). This has necessitated some constraints on what can be reported, particularly regarding methodological specifics that might be operationally sensitive.
Primary aims of this study:
- To describe the core phenomenological features of CISD
- To characterize cognitive and functional profiles
- To identify preliminary neurobiological correlates
- To situate CISD within a conceptual framework accommodating both expanded awareness and psychotic phenomena
>> 2. Methods
2.1. Participants
Twelve adults (N = 12) were enrolled. Inclusion criteria were:
- Age 18–45.
- Self-reported persistent experience of exhaustive or near-exhaustive awareness of consequences of choices/events, present for ≥ 12 months.
- Endorsement of marked blurring of boundaries between waking and dream-like states, and between "real" and "possible" events.
- Absence of primary psychotic disorder, major neurocognitive disorder, or current substance use disorder, as determined via structured clinical interview.
- Capacity to provide informed consent, as determined by a licensed clinician.
Exclusion criteria included:
- Uncontrolled neurological illness (e.g., active seizure disorder).
- Unstable medical conditions.
- Any condition judged to significantly compromise the safety of participation or the interpretability of data.
Participants were recruited through highly specialized clinical channels and internal referrals. Recruitment pathways and certain demographic details are not disclosed per directive.
2.2. Provisional Diagnostic Criteria for CISD
A provisional diagnosis required all of the following:
| Criterion |
Description |
| 1. Anticipatory Awareness |
Persistent, involuntary experience of being able to apprehend, with high subjective certainty, the consequences of any given choice or event across multiple temporal scales and branching outcomes |
| 2. Conscious Boundary Collapse |
Reports that information typically considered "intuitive," "background," or "subconscious" is continuously and explicitly available, often with no experiential distinction from ordinary conscious thought |
| 3. Dream-Waking Erosion |
Frequent intrusion of dream-like imagery, narrative, or logic into waking experience, and difficulty distinguishing remembered dreams, anticipated outcomes, and actual events |
| 4. Reality Loss |
A stable, recurrent conviction that no single, coherent, external, observer-independent reality can be reliably identified, due to concurrent awareness of multiple possible trajectories |
| 5. Functional Impairment |
Clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important domains of functioning, attributable to the above features |
| 6. Duration |
Duration ≥ 12 months, not better explained by another mental or neurological disorder, and not attributable solely to cultural or religious beliefs |
These criteria remain provisional and subject to revision.
2.3. Measures
2.3.1. Clinical and Psychometric Measures
The following standardized instruments were administered:
- Structured Clinical Interview for major psychiatric diagnoses
- A depression severity scale
- An anxiety severity scale
- A dissociation scale, emphasizing depersonalization and derealization
- A psychosis-spectrum symptom scale, focusing on hallucinations, delusions, and thought disorder
- A quality of life inventory and a global functioning scale
Scores are reported in normalized or anonymized form in accordance with data protection directives.
2.3.2. Phenomenological Interview
A semi-structured phenomenological interview was developed specifically for this study. Key domains included:
- Onset and temporal course of CISD
- Experience of anticipatory awareness of consequences
- Experiences of memory and recall, including alternative and counterfactual events
- Perception of reality, self, and others
- Impact on decision-making and daily functioning
- Coping strategies and perceived benefits, if any
Interviews were audio-recorded, transcribed, and coded using thematic analysis. All identifying content was removed prior to analysis.
2.3.3. Neurocognitive Battery
The battery emphasized:
- Episodic memory (verbal and visual)
- Semantic memory and general knowledge
- Working memory and attentional control
- Decision-making under uncertainty, using standardized tasks
- Temporal sequencing and ordering of events
Custom tasks involving hypothetical choices and outcome prediction were administered. Task details are partially withheld due to potential operational sensitivity. In general terms, participants were asked to rapidly evaluate multiple branching outcomes of hypothetical scenarios and to report their experience of certainty, complexity, and emotional burden.
2.3.4. Neuroimaging
Participants underwent non-invasive brain imaging, including structural and functional modalities. Specific scanner parameters, analytic pipelines, and certain region-of-interest choices are not reported per directive. Analyses focused on:
- Default mode network (self-referential processing and mind-wandering)
- Medial temporal structures (memory and scene construction)
- Fronto-parietal networks (cognitive control and working memory)
2.4. Procedure
All participants provided informed consent, documented in a form co-developed with the Agency's ethics unit. The consent process included explicit discussion of the following:
- Limits on confidentiality, including possible data access by the Agency
- Constraints on what could be reported publicly
- Acknowledgment that some aspects of their experiences could not be fully described in standard language
Participants completed assessments over two to four sessions (2–4 hours per session), scheduled to minimize fatigue and distress. A licensed clinician was present or on call during all data collection. A safety protocol was in place for acute exacerbations of distress.
2.5. Data Analysis
Quantitative data were analyzed using descriptive statistics (means, standard deviations, ranges) and exploratory correlations between symptom severity, functional impairment, and cognitive performance. Given the small sample size, no inferential statistics are emphasized.
Qualitative data from phenomenological interviews were coded inductively. Codes were grouped into themes through iterative review by the first author and two independent raters. Discrepancies were resolved by consensus. Some illustrative material has been intentionally paraphrased or abstracted to avoid inadvertent disclosure of identifying or operationally sensitive content.
>> 3. Results
3.1. Demographic and Clinical Characteristics
Participants (N = 12) ranged in age from 20 to 39 years. All were of at least high-school educational attainment; seven had pursued or completed higher education. At assessment:
- 9 were unemployed or underemployed relative to their educational level
- 8 reported significant social isolation, defined as fewer than two regular non-family social contacts
- 6 had a history of at least one psychiatric hospitalization, primarily for severe anxiety, depressive episodes, or acute existential crises linked to CISD experiences
Depression and anxiety scores were elevated in the majority of participants; dissociation scores were also consistently high, particularly in the domain of derealization. Psychosis-spectrum scores were modest, and none met criteria for a primary psychotic disorder. Participants generally retained insight that their condition was atypical, while simultaneously asserting that their mode of awareness was, in their view, more "accurate" or "complete" than ordinary cognition.
3.2. Phenomenological Themes
Qualitative analysis yielded several recurring themes.
| Key Phenomenological Findings |
| 3.2.1. Exhaustive Consequence Awareness |
All participants described overwhelming, involuntary awareness of downstream consequences—not limited to major life decisions but extending to trivial actions (e.g., choosing a seat in a room) and passive observations. Perception of multiple branching outcome chains arising from each potential action. An impression that these chains extended far beyond personally relevant horizons (e.g., societal, environmental, or global implications). Participants did not merely "worry about what might happen"; instead, they reported an experience closer to "already knowing" extensive networks of consequences. |
| 3.2.2. Temporal Boundary Collapse |
Past events, future possibilities, and alternative/counterfactual histories could be recalled or experienced with comparable vividness. The "felt direction" of time was often absent or unreliable. Some described the present as a "thin" or "illusory" slice through a dense cluster of co-existing possibilities. This collapse contributed to a sense that no single sequence of events held privileged status as "what really happened." |
| 3.2.3. Reality Erosion |
Pervasive loss of confidence in a single, stable external "objective" reality. Because participants perceived multiple outcome trajectories in parallel, they questioned whether it was meaningful to attribute ontological primacy to a single realized path. As one participant summarized: "Reality feels like a choice of viewpoint, not a thing that exists on its own." This was consistently associated with persistent anxiety, profound derealization, and feelings of isolation from others. |
| 3.2.4. Infinite Memory |
Immediate access to a vast number of memories, including early childhood events and details typically forgotten. Capacity to "replay" events from multiple interpretive stances, including how the event would have unfolded under different choices. Difficulty forgetting or setting aside painful or trivial information. Unlike conventional hypermnesia, CISD memory experiences often involved simultaneous awareness of multiple versions of events, not all of which had clearly occurred in the standard sense. This "overlapping" memory landscape contributed to confusion and distress. |
| 3.2.5. Identity Instability |
Several participants expressed difficulty maintaining a coherent sense of self. The self was experienced as one instantiation among many possible versions. Memories of alternative life paths (e.g., outcomes of decisions not actually taken) were experienced as belonging to the same "I." This multi-trajectory identity undermined commitment to any single life narrative, contributing to apathy and indecision. |
| 3.2.6. Decision Paralysis and Affective Overload |
The constant awareness of extensive outcome chains produced decision paralysis, even in routine situations. A sense of moral and practical overload, given awareness of distant and diffuse consequences. Episodes of acute distress when confronted with decisions perceived as "branch points" with extensive global ramifications. Many participants reported that the sheer burden of anticipatory awareness led to resignation, passivity, or avoidance of new commitments. |
| 3.2.7. Religious/Grandiose Salience |
Majority described experiences of occupying a privileged position in the structure of reality; episodes of believing they could directly recognize God. |
3.3. Cognitive Performance
On standard neurocognitive tests:
- Episodic memory: Performance was at or near ceiling for all participants, with recall of details well beyond typical norms.
- Working memory: Generally intact or superior, though some exhibited task disengagement due to boredom or perceived triviality.
- Attention and processing speed: Within normal limits.
- Decision-making tasks: Performance was variable. Some participants outperformed controls on tasks requiring evaluation of complex contingencies; others showed erratic responding, reflecting either overload or deliberate non-engagement.
Custom tasks involving branching outcomes revealed that participants:
- Generated more possible consequences than control data would predict
- Rated their certainty about these consequences as high, even when outcomes were probabilistic or speculative by standard criteria
- Reported distress and fatigue when asked to focus on "only a few" outcomes, describing such constraint as "artificial" or "dishonest"
3.4. Functional Outcomes
All participants exhibited significant functional impairment:
- Occupational: Chronic underemployment, inability to sustain long-term projects, or withdrawal from prior career trajectories.
- Social: Marked social withdrawal, attributed both to difficulty relating their experiences to others and to the cognitive load of tracking perceived consequences of social interactions.
- Daily living: Some reported difficulty completing ordinary tasks due to focus on downstream effects (e.g., environmental impact, long-term opportunity costs).
Despite high cognitive capacity, participants consistently described themselves as "incapable" or "unsuited" to conventional roles, not due to lack of skill but due to the subjective impossibility of inhabiting a single, limited perspective.
3.5. Neuroimaging Findings
Across participants, imaging revealed:
- Altered functional connectivity in networks associated with self-referential processing, mental time travel, and memory integration
- Patterns suggestive of increased baseline activity and reduced segregation between networks involved in internal mentation (e.g., default mode) and those involved in externally oriented attention
Due to constraints, specific metrics, regional labels, and quantitative values are not provided. However, at a broad level, CISD appears associated with a brain-wide pattern of reduced modularity and heightened integration among systems supporting simulation of self-relevant scenarios across time.
No gross structural abnormalities or lesions were observed.
>> 4. Discussion
4.1. Summary of Findings
This study provides an initial, systematically collected description of Clear Inner Sight Disorder (CISD), a proposed diagnostic entity characterized by:
- Subjectively exhaustive anticipatory awareness of consequences of actions and events
- Breakdown of normal distinctions between past, present, and future
- Erosion of a stable sense of objective reality
- Infinite or near-infinite recall extending to both actual and alternative event sequences
- Significant functional impairment despite preserved or enhanced cognitive abilities
The findings support the view that CISD is clinically and phenomenologically distinct from existing categories such as psychotic disorders, classic dissociative disorders, or mere memory enhancement conditions.
4.2. Consequences of Effectively Infinite Memory and Awareness
A central theme in CISD is the transformation of memory and anticipation from adaptive tools into pervasive, inescapable environments. In ordinary cognition, forgetting and selective attention serve protective and organizing functions. In CISD, these natural filters are effectively compromised. Consequences include:
1. Cognitive Saturation
With access to vast quantities of detailed information and alternative scenarios, individuals experience continuous cognitive saturation. This makes prioritization and focus difficult, undermining goal-directed behavior.
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2. Destabilization of Identity
Identity typically relies on a constrained narrative of "what has happened" to the self. In CISD, simultaneous access to multiple potential and counterfactual narratives dilutes the privilege of any single life path. The self is experienced as a superposition of possibilities rather than a single historical entity.
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3. Erosion of Normative Decision-Making
Considered decision-making ordinarily involves weighing a limited set of plausible outcomes. CISD subjects experience vastly expanded consequence sets, extending beyond practical concern. Moral and pragmatic frameworks built for limited foresight struggle under such conditions, leading to paralysis or disengagement.
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4. Loss of Objective Reality
When multiple outcome trajectories and alternative histories are experienced with comparable vividness, the notion of a singular, observer-independent reality loses its functional utility. The world becomes a field of potentialities, none of which can claim absolute status. This erodes commonsense realism and can mimic or exceed the phenomenology of derealization.
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5. Emotional and Existential Burden
Infinite memory and awareness deprive individuals of partial ignorance, which in non-affected individuals permits hope, surprise, and bounded regret. For those with CISD, the awareness of consequences is accompanied by an awareness of all the ways things could have been otherwise—and may yet be otherwise in alternative trajectories. The result is often chronic grief, guilt, and disorientation.
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KEY INSIGHT: CISD illustrates that more information and more memory are not inherently beneficial. There appears to be an optimal range of cognitive access for human flourishing, beyond which additional insight becomes a liability.
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4.3. Relationship to Existing Constructs
CISD intersects with several existing constructs but is not reducible to them:
- Hypermnesia and Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory: Unlike these conditions, CISD involves not only dense memory for actual events but also recall of alternative and potential events with comparable vividness.
- Psychosis: While there is a loss of ordinary reality testing, CISD subjects are typically aware that their experiences differ from consensus reality and can articulate this difference. There is no consistent presence of delusions in the classical sense; rather, there is an overabundance of internally consistent models.
- Dissociation: Experiences of derealization and depersonalization are common, but they appear secondary to the underlying expansion of awareness and memory, rather than primary phenomena.
- Obsessive–Compulsive Spectrum: Preoccupation with outcomes and consequences is extreme. However, the underlying mechanism is less about intrusive thoughts and more about an altered fundamental access to information about possibilities.
4.4. Ethical and Practical Considerations
The existence of CISD raises non-trivial clinical, ethical, and societal questions. These include:
- How to treat individuals whose suffering stems not from false beliefs but from a qualitatively different access to possibilities and memories
- How to respect the subjective validity of their experiences while enabling them to function within a consensus reality
- Whether and how such capacities should be studied, given their potential implications
The involvement of the Agency in this research reflects the recognition that CISD, if better understood, may intersect with domains beyond clinical practice. These intersections are not elaborated here due to operational constraints, but they motivate the caution and controlled dissemination surrounding this work.
From a clinical standpoint, any intervention strategy must grapple with the fact that traditional approaches—such as cognitive restructuring or reality testing—may have limited relevance. The problem is not that patients "misperceive" reality in a simple way, but that their perceptual and mnemonic fields are too broad for existing frameworks.
4.5. Limitations
This study has several important limitations:
- Sample Size and Sampling Bias: The cohort is small and drawn from specialized referral sources; findings may not generalize to all individuals with similar experiences.
- Provisional Diagnostic Criteria: CISD criteria are preliminary and based on early clinical impressions. Future work may refine or substantially revise these criteria.
- Self-Report Dependence: Much of the data is phenomenological and thus reliant on introspective accuracy and verbal expression, which may be strained under the burden of describing such an unusual condition.
- Restricted Reporting: Due to constraints imposed by the Agency, some methodological and analytic details cannot be disclosed. This limits external evaluation and replication.
- Cross-Sectional Design: The study provides a snapshot rather than a longitudinal view. The developmental trajectory of CISD, including potential progression, remission, or adaptation, remains unclear.
4.6. Future Directions
CISD raises questions extending beyond routine clinical ethics. The involvement of the Agency reflects broader implications. Conventional interventions may prove limited since the challenge is not to correct distortions but to help patients live with an excess of internally coherent perspectives.
Any extension of this work must account for the fact that acquiring detailed knowledge of CISD appears to carry personal and professional risks that are not evenly distributed among those involved.
Future research should:
- Explore longitudinal trajectories in larger, diverse samples
- Develop tailored psychotherapeutic frameworks that focus on the management, rather than the elimination, of expanded awareness
- Investigate whether graded modulation of memory and anticipatory access (pharmacological, neuromodulatory, or behavioral) can reduce functional impairment without fundamentally altering identity
- Examine, under appropriate ethical oversight, how CISD informs fundamental models of consciousness, time perception, and the limits of human cognitive capacity
Any such work must remain attentive to the potential for misuse or instrumentalization of CISD-related knowledge, necessitating ongoing oversight.
>> 5. Conclusion
CISD, as provisionally characterized here, is not a mere curiosity but a profoundly destabilizing alteration of human awareness. It reveals that the boundaries between consciousness and non-consciousness, between memory and imagination, and between reality and possibility are not fixed but contingent. When these boundaries collapse, the result is not enlightenment but a state in which infinite memory and anticipatory cognition undermine the very structures that make coherent experience and agency possible.
The emergence of grandiose delusions, religious "recognitions" of God, and transient states of complete psychosis appears less an aberration than an expected failure mode of a system forced to integrate more possibilities than it can safely contain.
The present study offers only an initial, constrained look at this condition. Nonetheless, it strongly suggests that there exists a point beyond which greater clarity and more complete inner sight cease to serve human flourishing and instead become a disorder in the most literal sense: a systematic breakdown of ordered experience.
The capacity to see too much—to remember too much, to anticipate too much—ceases to be a strength and becomes a condition under which continued ordinary life is, at best, precarious.
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How to Cite This Paper:
Torres, S. (2003). Clear Inner Sight Disorder (CISD): A Preliminary Clinical and Phenomenological Characterization of an Ultra-Rare Condition of Extended Awareness. Department of Neuropsychiatry and Consciousness Studies. [Institution withheld by directive].
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